i exist in a haze of grey, yet still i seek a brighter day, i won't stay lost in this sea of shade, i'm moving towards a brighter day, i caught a glimpse of a greener pasture, down the road but it exists, that's all that matters, even if i have to wait forever, to … Continue reading Meadow.
I saw you and I, on a wrap around porch, in the summertime, 40 years down the line, rocking back and forth in our chairs, wrinkly hands intertwined, laughing about the same old, your olive skin shaded darker by the years, your hair not as long as it was, but your brown eyes, they stayed … Continue reading Same Old.
enough time has passed, where the pain is no longer a constant. it hits now, like a wave strikes the beachfront at high tide. and in that moment when it comes it envelopes everything. washing away all the good that currently exists. then it passes. i spend the days where your memory overtakes me, reminiscing … Continue reading Enough.
There seems to be a disconnect between my mind and my reality, Where I exist in two seperate places and both maintain a certain fragility, So easily am I tossed between two different plains of existence, Yet I continue onward with an irrational sense of confident insistence, Stuck in this pattern of self destruction and … Continue reading Insanity.
As of late I've found that I am attracted to the chaos that accompanies tragedy and uncertainty, moreso than the stability that follows order. I can no longer enjoy the mundane or monotonus slog of the every day. No longer seek the ordinary, or the feeling of just ok, no. Not any longer. I need … Continue reading The Fire.
The sun rises and the sun sets, days blend together, the distance between us grows greater but I still can't forget, what it felt like to hold you in my arms, it was a drug unlike any other, one dose could stave off the hurt, i'm still coming down from you, withdrawal has left me … Continue reading Withdrawal.
Been up for a couple days straight now, sleep doesn't come easy anymore, and when it comes it's not good, memories and dreams become one, reality doesn't seem very real, the warm body in my bed doesn't cure the loneliness, the pills don't stop the noises, but the drink, the drink is still a friend, … Continue reading Sleep.
I called the doctor but I had to leave a Message When he called me back He said he can't help me I asked why He said there is only one cure For what I got And that cure is time I said Doc That's the one thing I don't got
How would you have me contend, With all of the company in my head, With a mind that's never clear, A soul void of anything but fear, Your words of encouragement all ring hollow, They won't help me reach tomorrow, Yet you preach them all the same, To hell with your God take his name … Continue reading Company.
I have tried to drink you Away I have tried to drug you Away I have tried to fuck you Away But you will not go Away They keep telling me time will get you Away I need you desperately to go Away In truth I don't want you to go Away.
The coldness that I now feel Is not the coldness that is now real The frost has settled on the ground But the pain inside is more profound Then any type of freeze that comes my way And so this winter I'll see no reprieve From the cold that's now inside of me.
You are my prison And you are my paradise One sip, one glass and I'm lost in your trance And I need you More than ever now You're the last friend I have left You bring the quiet And only you can dull the pain But you have taken everything from me In truth we're … Continue reading Trapped In The Bottle.
It's 3am I can't sleep Another night Plagued by dreams I'm tired of her showing up there Sick of writing about it Need her out of my head But as of late The only reprieve Is an intrusive thought Tying the knot Slipping it on Pulling taut Then the drop No good thoughts
I don't let people in There was only one before you She didn't like what she saw either And she left too It's hard to describe the pain When someone really sees you When they say that they love you But they can't stay and leave you I won't do that again But not out … Continue reading You.
I hop from bed to bed Telling my sad tale to any that will hear And they listen I don't know why But they do And I drink And they don't But they still listen And they keep letting me come back In truth I'm not much of a man More a boy I don't … Continue reading I Drink.
2 pills to numb the pain, 6 drinks to do the same, A few hours away, I escape into the maze, Where this feeling disappears, And nothing really matters, Where life is just a game, The mirror no longer shattered, I see the boy I was, Not the man that I've become, And for a … Continue reading Numb.
There are moments in my day Where for just a minute I forget about you I can crack a smile I can laugh And within seconds There you are The smile fades The laugh dies It hurts.
Nothing feels Good Anymore I've felt this way For years Bandaged that feeling For so long With Women With Booze With Pills & Cheap thrills But now My vices Are bland I still get up Still go on with my day But nothing feels good anymore I don't think I'm ok.
The snow has fallen and winter has finally begun. The days are getting shorter and the nights grow long. The coldness in my bed only amplified now that you're gone. I know I wasn't yours but for me you were the one. I'll miss the way it felt to spend winter wrapped in sheets together. … Continue reading Snowfall.
What's the old saying? To get over someone, get under someone new. So then why when I'm with another can I only think of you? I wonder if you feel the same. Curious if you feel this pain. Do you ever think of me when another man says your name? When you find yourself in … Continue reading Do you ever?
I long for the day where I take my last breath. Relief from this hole that inhabits my chest. Escape my fractured mind and embrace beautiful death. I long for the day where I take my last breath. But this life isn't done with me yet. I made a deal with the devil and I … Continue reading The Devil Inside.
I sought hollow comfort in another woman's bed. Tried to fill this void inside myself, tried to clear my head. Of you. And now I know for sure, what I had only thought before. You are irreplaceable. And so I'll get up in the morning and I'll sleepwalk through my day. Dreaming about the times … Continue reading Sleepwalking.